I was lost in utter darkness
I was trapped in toxic shame
I was bound by my religion
Till I chose to break away
Now I'm finding my true colors
For the first time I feel free
Now I'm learning self-compassion
As I heal I'm finding peace
I kept others at a distance
Those who lived life differently
Saw the world in right or wrong
But they're all humans just like me
I stepped out and love expanded
"Us and Them" melted away
Beauty found in every difference
As I listen, I'm amazed
I saw danger in my questions
I took captive all my thoughts
Certainty was my salvation
Till I questioned what was taught
Now my eyes are wide in wonder
Mind set free now to discern
I might not have all the answers
But I have all this life to learn
I was lost in utter darkness
I was trapped in toxic shame
I was bound by my religion
Till I chose to break away
Now I'm finding my true colors
For the first time I feel free
Now I'm learning self-compassion
As I heal I'm finding peace
credits
released July 28, 2023
Lyrics by Alanah Sabatini and Ashley White
Music by Alanah Sabatini
Cello by Santhie Amadeus
Produced by Alanah Sabatini
Mastered by Mark Sciaruto
Special thanks to the following singers who submitted their voice recordings for the final reprise of the song:
Aaron Salamonson, Adam Flores, Alyssa M, Andrea Kevresian, Ashley White, Bekah Gwen, Bethanie Lawrence, Bruce Stevens, Cassie Nelson, Claire Meredith, Dani Anderson, Deanna K Roberts, Dillon Anderson, Emily Shane, Erin Blanchard, Erin Kilpatrick, Felix Hartley, Geneva Houx, Heather Schieder, Spencer Jensen, Taylor, Jodi Rose, John Cook, Julianne Marshall, Katharine DeBurgh, Kellie Milton, Kelsey Marie Edwards, Kit Fox, Leslie Kimble, Mallory Jenkins, MaryGrace Chappell, Nancy Riley, Peter Hull, Peyton McFarlain, Rachael Masters, Rhiyana Furniss, Ro R, Santhie Amadeus, Sarah Barletter, Sarah Berkey, Taylor Rodriguez, and the 13 others who didn't wish to be credited by name
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